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FINALIST – 2014 Lambda Literary Award in the Lesbian Memoir/Biography Category, presented by the Lambda Literary Foundation
A 1960s Bronx tomboy learns how to survive her brutal but humorous Italian family and all the rest that life throws her. The harder you hit the pavement, the higher you fly.
This vivid memoir speaks the intense truth of a Bronx tomboy whose 1960s girlhood was marked by her father’s lullabies laced with his dissociative memories of combat in World War II. At four years old, Annie Rachele Lanzillotto bounced her Spaldeen on the stoop and watched the boys play stickball in the street; inside, she hid silver teaspoons behind the heat pipes to tap calls for help while her father beat her mother. At eighteen, on the edge of ambitious freedom, her studies at Brown University were halted by the growth of a massive tumor inside her chest. Thus began a wild, truth-seeking journey for survival, fueled by the lessons of lasagna vows, and Spaldeen ascensions. From the stoops of the Bronx to cross-dressing on the streets of Egypt, from the cancer ward at Memorial Sloan-Kettering to New York City’s gay club scene of the ’80s, this poignant and authentic story takes us from underneath the dining room table to the stoop, the sidewalk, the street, and, ultimately, out into the wide world of immigration, gay subculture, cancer treatment, mental illness, gender dynamics, drug addiction, domestic violence, and a vast array of Italian American characters. With a quintessential New Yorker as narrator and guide, this journey crescendos in a reluctant return home to the timeless wisdom of a peasant, immigrant grandmother, Rosa Marsico Petruzzelli, who shows us the sweetest essence of soul.
“…a truly inspirational story that takes us beyond gender, beyond sexual persuasion, and into the humanity that defines us all … Annie’s is a liberating story, not only in what happens to her, but in the way she tells it … L Is for Lion is an extraordinary telling of ordinary experiences in the life of a Bronx Butch.” — Fra Noi
“You need to read this book because it’s the most powerful depiction I have ever read of how a human being can draw on her folk culture, her humor, and her poetic insight to pull life-affirming meaning out of the gutter like a lost spaldeen … L Is for Lion is a luscious lasagna pulled from the hot stove that binds us together as human beings.” — Steve Zeitlin, City Lore
“Annie Rachele Lanzillotto is a vividly talented writer whose coming of age story as a Bronx Italian lesbian creates a superb memoir. Rollicking with detail, poetic in language L Is for Lion is the book you read while walking through the house or out to your mailbox, just not wanting to pause even a moment.” — San Francisco Book Review
“This sprawling narrative could be called an Italian memoir, a Bronx memoir, a cancer memoir, a veteran father memoir, a 1960s childhood memoir, a mother-daughter memoir, or a lesbian memoir. In an ambitious display of storytelling, Lanzillotto’s charming collection of vignettes encompasses all of these identities at once … L Is for Lion comes across like a bright, entertaining friend who tells the best stories—the kind you never forget.” — Lambda Literary
“If you want to know what it means to be a real human being, read Annie Lanzillotto’s memoir, L Is for Lion, the title delivered to her directly in a dream from her dead father. As its subtitle implies, the book is a lesbian coming-of-age story, but like Whitman before her, Annie is vast; she contains multitudes. In spite of the privation and scarcity that have always dogged her, she lives out of abundance. You will love this lion as I do, and she will make you roar.” — Jean Feraca, author of I Hear Voices: A Memoir of Love, Death, and the Radio
“Annie’s adventures as a Bronx-born tomboy are one-of-a-kind. The writing is exuberant and lyrical; the characterization masterful. Told with pathos, wit, and unflagging energy. If you’re looking for a memoir in high-definition surround sound, look no further.” — Margaux Fragoso, author of Tiger, Tiger: A Memoir
“Annie Lanzillotto, the bard of Bronx Italian butch, is an American original, a performance artist and cultural anthropologist whose work is unique in theme, sound, affect, and effect. This memoir reveals her to be something more: an astonishing writer possessed of an utterly inimitable voice, a voice at once as richly soulful as her mother’s lasagna and as bracingly unsentimental as her father’s Marine masculinity. Lanzillotto’s stories bounce and stretch with the elasticity of her trusted Spaldeen, keeping us just a step ahead of the flying emotional shrapnel of an intensely lived life as we move from the mean streets of 1970s Bronx to the Ivy League, the Memorial Sloan-Kettering cancer ward, the banks of the Nile, and the Italian mezzogiorno. A landmark of ethnic expressivity, L Is for Lion indelibly portrays the iconic Italian American spaces of kitchen, stoop, sidewalk, and street; the body as a site of humor and tragedy; and, above all, the family war zone as an uncanny intermingle of poignancy and brutality.” — John Gennari, author of Blowin’ Hot and Cool: Jazz and Its Critics
“L Is for Lion is a book about a girl named ‘Daddy’ who goes to Brown but never leaves the Bronx. This long-awaited memoir by lesbian storyteller and performance artist Annie Lanzillotto traverses the distance from Arthur Avenue to Cairo to Sloan-Kettering and back again in an ethnography of the self and of an era. It’s a book made of dismantled padlocks, and of doors, opened and closed; of spoons clanking against radiators in an attempt to speak or scream; of Ivy League classism and World War II racism; of language ‘spoken and broken.’ Equal parts humor, guts, and grief, it’s a disarming story of all that a person—body, mind, and soul—can undergo without going under, in which ‘Bronxite’ is a new kind of rock.” — Mary Cappello, author of Awkward: A Detour and Called Back
Annie Rachele Lanzillotto is a poet and performance artist living in New York. She teaches master classes in solo performance for the Acting Apprentice Company at Actors Theatre of Louisville. She is the author of a book of poetry, Schistsong.
Table of Contents
Prologue: The Blue Suitcase
Part One: Bronx Tomboy
Eat with Guys You Trust Breakfast Is to Coat the Stomach The X Stoop The Return of the Rust A Good Eater The Tin Ceiling Sidewalk Licking Batteries Teaspoons and Heatpipes Kitchen Bird Kindergarten, Boot Camp: 1968 Sister Rosaria Quicksand Lasagna Vows Ravioli, Homing Pigeons, and Teletype Machines Grandpop, the Hook, and the Eyebrow Made of Rubber Sister Giuseppina Sister Ercolina Playing War Lead Pipe, Montezuma, Icicle Hand to Hand The Return of the Lasagna Street How to Catch a Flyball in Oncoming Traffic The Names of Horses Rook to Queen Four Burning Rubber and Penmanship Trestles and Love Silence, Violence The Blue Angel Bronx County Family Courthouse Parkchester Poseidon Adventure The Lady in Black Fast Break
Part Two: Educationa Girl
The Temporary Apartment Permanent Wave Useless Expertise Hunger Beat Agida Sistermazione Walk Softly but Carry a Big Pockabook Lunch Is to Clean the Blood Slow, Loud, and Clear Asthma, Green Money, and the Feast Brakeman Outfield Greens My Mother, the Plaintoff Aunt Patty’s Bullfight You’re Just Like Your Father Junkie Pride Mary Perry College Entrance Strike One Fontanelle Aurelius The Miracle Worker of 233rd Street
Part Three: Kimosabe
The Best Place to Have Cancer Room 621 Shake ‘n Bake The Fastigium Dope and Demerol The Pipeline Truckstop Paranoia Chemistry Amara Brazil Upside Down Belly Up Overheating Triple Boiling Point Eat ‘Til You Sweat The Tumor Board The Radioactive Man Says, “Don’t Give Up the Ship!” Thoracotomy One Mis-sip-pi Magnetic Lace Lesbianism, Suicide, or the Nunnery How to Wake Up a Marine in a Foxhole Red Death Interventions Falling and Flying Civilian Life Sucks Deep Bell
Part Four: How to Cook a Heart
Wallid Walla Bint Equator Crossings Bronx Italian Butch Freedom Never Come Out in a Lincoln Continental A Nightclub Named Devotion “Roma o Morte!” Vrrooooom! “Cosa Mangia Oggi!” My Mother’s Aorta a’Schapett Shave My Head Enter Audrey Lauren Kindred Rachele’s Pocketbook Fritatta How to Poke a Guy’s Eyes Out How to Cook a Heart
Part Five: Annie’s Parts
Mr. Fixit Six Places to Buy Milk My Father, Marconi, and Me Sciamannin’ Horizontal People Radioactive Feast Limoncello and the Black Bra Garlic, the Ave Maria, and the Blue Leg Cittadinanza Assassination Focaccia Spearmint Gum Cure One Day My Horse Will Come In Madeleine and the Magic Biscotti How GrammaRose Became a Peach Tree Fruttificare The Lasagna Stands Alone Three Days from Eternity Don’t Make ‘Em Burn Pipe Dreams The Little Fish and the Big Ocean Three Hundred Cream Puffs and the Illusion Veil Lingua Madre Sì o No? A Couple of Teaspoons of Coffee and a Couple of Drops of Milk Becoming GrammaRose Peach Tree